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A Bearable Element

A thousand and one things ran through my mind before this shoot and ideas came and went, leaving a trail of shadows too feeble to grasp in its wake. I found that the more you try to capture it on paper or picture, the more it seems to slip away from my head. Someone said once said in an interview that he wouldn’t write or envision the ideas in his head, because it slips from his grasp each time he does. Instead, he opted to wait until that very day to come up with the ideas because he noted that it will make him work better under stress.

This session was definitely not as stressful as Le Royal Club collection – but it’s got its fair share of … ups & downs. It’s such a scary thing to have so many things in the balance, and so many people to look after in that environment.

It made me realize alot of things and for the many conflicting ideas and emotions that went into this shoot has taken a whole lot of my energy up. It didn’t help too that one sleeps only about 3 hours because of the anxiety that was building up. Usually I’d have the mood to do some crazy recording moments as a personal & relaxing act that is – well, kinda selfish but fun, but this took up so much of myself that it has totally flew out of my mind. The session was done under duress due to the many factors that I cannot state.

The night before the shoot, I’ve received messages from certain people, giving me their encouragements & support (you know who you are!) for asking me to sleep early in order to be alert, to have courage, to not be so stressed…etc… That really got me through. And ofcourse, not forgetting the huge amount of trust & faith from the people involved. I will never forget how this simple act can change my way of perceiving people. There is much good still around us To the hands at the studio who made it happen, thank you for trusting, listening to our ideas, believing in me and for re-creating what we needed despite the setbacks in the beginning. Thank you you all!

Regrettably, this session will not grace my usual picture site because of personal reasons – too many yet too tired to state. But when I do have my proper site up for presentation, I will post them there & let whoever I choose to know.

For the mean time, despite the stress and many other things that went on – the one that made it all bearable throughout the entire shoot was Miki, the fat chihuahua (really fat!). More than half the time, our model here was playing with her and refused to let Miki down unless shots were taken with the dog… *wipes sweat* And more than half the time, we’ve to make her leave the dog alone by carrying her (the dog) elsewhere and far away from her grasp Hahahah! Even when she leaves the ’sweet spot’ just to view the pics, I’d have to shoo her back to that position so it won’t disrupt the rhythm.

Yeah, towards the middle part of the session, things picked up and it became more fun and relaxed. We actually had such a good time that the studio was used for somersaults, doggie cuddling, hat tossing, spinning and twirling and god knows what else. It made me feel as if it could go on forever and I wouldn’t mind it any bit.

I am tired… yet very satisfied. Should have been in bed but instead, I am anxious to know the outcome of the shots….

Dozing off… tired.

Laters…