The minute my old pair of Camel Active sandals broke (and I really mean broke! the heels came apart!), I nearly went into a frenzy knowing I can’t go without my walking sandals. It’s a real bother to be able to find one that I really like and that it fits me without looking like I am going to kick ass anytime. Used to have one mean-looking black pair before my CA but it got stolen while I was on an island trip some time back. And now this one’s broken.

It took me a few days to look for a new pair, mot of the stores didn’t hold what I want. The sandals they have were either too ‘gentle’ looking or too ‘delicate’ for rough use.

Knowing myself and all the places I’d walk in, these couldn’t even pass for my needs. Until me and mom came upon this one in the store. We both saw the same pair, immediately tried it out, fell in love with it, and bought it without a second thought~ Weeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!

And now, I can continue with my wanderings without any worries of wearing out my feet with a lousy pair of outdoor sandals

In the absence of Light…

Meg’s Magic

One of the more wonderful aspects of my life would be the fact that once the busy season is over, I get all this time in my hands to do whatever I want and totally relax myself while doing it. Be it reading books in my room, taking a run or walk outside, checking out new movies at the theater without crowds on weekdays, bumming in a cafe with a nice hot coffee & book or friend to chat with… I know I am suppose to be out taking pictures for my portfolio but thing is, I’ve been a little downcast over recent situations in the country and how the tourism industry is going stagnant in the meantime.

So to put these disturbing & slightly depressing things off my mind, there’s no better cure than to have a movie with Meg Ryan in it to lighten one’s troubled soul.

I don’t know about the general population of movie goers, but there’s just something about the magic in Meg Ryan’s eyes that makes you want to dream and dare to fall in love and have hope for magical endings in life. And one of the best things about her light-hearted movies is that it makes my brother’s eyes sparkle with such childish innocence whenever he’s watching her.

Yes, my brother the macho ‘i love football’, drinking-with-the-guys-during-weekends, talking-crap-on-the-phone-for-long-hours, futsal-for-hours-when-not-working and coming-home-with-scratched-knees, blasting deafening experimental rock/heavy rock music that are new-bands-out-of-the-old-bands…etc. Out of all this and he’s easily taken apart while watching “Sleepless in Seattle”, “City of Angels”, “Kate & Leopold” or his absolute favourite “You’ve Got Mail”.

Perhaps it is the color of those intense yet almost-childish eyes of hers that charms you off your feet. Perhaps it is the way she speaks out as her character. Or the way she walks that same walk of hers from since the days of “French Kiss” .. I don’t know…

Watching her movies, especially romantic comedies, with my bro, it makes your toes curl with happy anticipation.

One time I came home after a particularly long, tiring and frustrating day at work, I saw him all curled up with his face half buried in the cushion pillows he was hugging. I went over to see what he was watching, and it was toward the end of “You’ve Got Mail” and he was all misty eyed.

“You’re watching it again?” I asked, amused. Behind the pillow, his eyes smiled at me and then continued watching the screen. I relaxed myself to the sofa and watched it with him, like I always do. Towards the end, his favourite heroine gets her happy ending knowing that the person she loves is who she had longed wished to turn out to love her in return.

As I got up to get to my room to shower, he looked up with me with happy sparkly eyes and said to me, “Don’t you just love happy endings?” and sighed in satisfaction.

I absolutely adore my brother for this. And he’s the reason why I love watching Meg Ryan too.

Work Is…

… catching up, that’s what.

I missed out February, though I promised a friend to at least write one post per month since I am so lazy. But seriously, February work has gotten me tied down and what with the need to do up a portfolio that’s usable in a certain area, I’ve gotten a little scared and honestly, nervous about the whole thing.

March is looking up for more work and my involvement in this new agency (well, they are not THAT new but they Are new for me) has been fruitful and it’s nice to know that the guests I’ve been with enjoy their time here and with me as their guide. It’s really nice to be able to go to the office to do my paperwork and then have some of my new colleagues coming in and telling me that eventhough I was not around for the guests’ last day, they were still asking for me and sending their best wishes for all that I do in the future. They really make day/month with such great feedback. This really helps me to push for better customer relations and service in my work.

I can’t believe it’s March already! I mean, it felt like it was only a few days ago that I celebrated New Year with a good friend (who actually dragged me out with her even though I didn’t really think of staying - but I’m glad you did!) and now that it’s already the third month, I am reminded of how fast time flies while I am at work.

I just want you to know that I will work my best to make it. I have promised you this and I will keep to that promise. You know the many financial difficulties I have and that is my ONLY concern now. Picking up the camera and doing what I need to do, that’s not going to be a problem, nor would it be for me to adapt to a new environment. I mean, are you kidding me? I love new environments! I live to travel and find out new stuffs - especially food & more exciting pictures!

My schedule is a little lax towards the middle of this month, but I’m expecting it to be packed with work once I clear of the dates with the office staff about my availability to work. Freelancing kicks ass. I’m so glad that this will at least give me  the power to actually get my own rest days as and when I like it. But one thing about freelancing is that you have to be really good at what you do. The income is not fixed - It depends heavily on how well you work and how much work you can take on that is worth every single minute of your working energy. I’m not saying I am great at what I do, I’m still improving where I know I lack the qualities to make it better.

There are a few things pending for now which I know I must look into, I promise that I will, but for now, work really comes first. Whatever promises I have made, I will keep. Should I let up, I know I’ll have you friends to count on to knock my senses back into this lazy bean and get back in on a faster pace.

6 more hours to start work. Man, one day’s rest just seem so short. My entire body’s aching but it’s such a relief to be able to sleep 8 hours today. When I work, I can’t seem to sleep past 4 hours… 6 more hours to work… I’ve gotta go prepare my speeches and information. Laters~

Let’s Draw a Dream

Somewhere at the close of 2007, I was given a certain choice to change my life and frankly, the thought consumed me from then… right up till now infact.

Many a nights I stayed awake thinking, pondering, musing, lamentating…

Where am I going with what I am doing now? The weather is going awry as we live our lives, empires threatening its own downfall, gentleness comes a little harder as the years go by and now the New Year is here and there isn’t a single resolution I have come up with before then… until I was presented with this choice.

Nothing has happened yet because I lack the necessities to bring about its occurance. Which is the reason why my resolution has come to be for this year. And I have never had anything much to work forward to until this. I had always thought that alot of the things I’d do would come to a dead end. But this is different, and come hell or high water, I WILL make it different this time.

Whispers of what I long for lingers at the edge of my dreams before I wake. Has anyone ever found out the conclusion to the dream they dream? Has anyone ever completed their dreams?  With dreams come the desire in me to find its destination, where it is to take me and where I’ll end up to be…

I’ve recently met up with a few key people in my recent life who came to open my eyes and heart about what really matters. Through our quiet and unassuming conversations over coffee and tea, their insights to the life the way they have lived it gave me hope that there is much to be earned by being brave. Bravery is something that has to be grown from the inside… It doesn’t just fall into one’s lap. This is the opportunity to go out and look for it. It waits beyond there, that we’re daring enough to dream and find what lies beyond just images or imagination.

Be the change you want to see in this world, someone said.

Once you’re comfortable with where you are & what you do, it’s time to move on, another said.

Who cares what they think? What matters is what you know yourself to be, the last one echoed in my head.

I promise you I will work towards it, to all the people who believed in me and gave me strength to find the bravery I need to carry on. I owe my imaginations, my aspirations, my dream, my hopes, my love to all of you.
Let us all draw a dream.

Let us all find the courage to follow it.

And may we all achieve that which our heart and soul most desire, to all good things that will make us better people for everyone else.

Cheers to you all & May you have a great New Year from start until the finish

Hallow’s Eve means Eat & be Fat :D

“Happy Halloween!!!” shouts a certain cream puff through the phone. I smiled, couldn’t help it. We don’t even celebrate it here.

“The only scary thing I’m going to do is to give away a box of chocolates,” I said.

A few seconds went by in silence… and then -

“Why can’t I get a box of chocolates too?!?” she cried. I laughed out loud.

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How did you spend your Halloween?

I did that by parking the car under a scorching hot sun, and then strolling off to Secret Recipe with my buddy Kyels (who had just finished meeting her lecturers over some boring assignment) to stuff our faces with lasagne, spagetti bolognaise, ice lemon tea & chocolate brownies (which was melting on the top and rich as hell). How did we even manage to stuff that down?

After chatting about her Uni work and contemplating how certain brainless idiots usually pops up in our lives, we went on to plant our butts down in Baskin Robbins to continue philosophizing about these issues. The sales staff convinced us to get ice creams at 31% off and I was totally hungry for rum raisins then. Kyels picked the World Class Choc flavour and we had them all in a pint… A PINT!!!

Between talking about crazy topics that comes to mind and discussing disturbing issues about certain funny characters, we stopped half way as I realized she wasn’t really listening to me.

In her hands, she held the Baskin’s paper bag and was rattling it, tossing it back and forth both hands and then looking at me sheepishly.

“What the heck is wrong with you?!?” I asked, stopping midway from eating my rum raisin.

“Nothing~” Kyels said, looking even more sheepish, “I’m just fascinated with the ice.”

Inside the package were several cubes of dry ice meant to preserve our pint of mixed ice cream. Instead of having it take-out, we had decided to eat it there, so the dry ice became a source of entertainment.

“I wonder what will happen if I lick the ice?”

I could almost see my own right eyebrow raised when she asked me that question. What in the world is she actually thinking? Trying not to laugh, I answered her as calmly as I could and told her that her tongue would get stuck to it and that she’ll get a burning sensation out of it.

Kyels took the ice out and held them in her hands.

“It does burn!” she exclaimed in silent fascination, and quickly returned it back into the paper bag. Then she took the bag and played with it again.

I think I must have rolled my eyes at that statement. Hahahah!

Between the dry ice obsession and our random discussions about whatever came to mind, we managed to wharf down almost the entire pint! Gawd, we’re such pigs!

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But ya know, we ain’t as much of a pig as some one who’d have banana pudding at 3am on one day and 2-3 donuts at 2am+ on another day just to gain a few pounds.

Hahahahah!!

Happy Halloween~!!!

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